Lost in Transition

I feel as though I have been in a fog as of late.  Some would say that "I don't feel like myself", but that isn't the case for me.  For me it is more like I don't know who I am.  Most days, I go on and on with this thought that at any moment that I am going to wake up and be a completely different person, living a completely different life, but I never wake up. I love my son, and I wouldn't give him up for anything, but sometimes I wish that I would have left his father before I got pregnant.  I wonder "where would I be now?"  I wanted to go away for college.  I wanted to get a degree in music therapy.  I thought that being able to teach music would be a good transition point before I am able to get my degree in music therapy, but most days, I loath teaching.  I don't know what I am doing anymore!